Curhatku

Aku tahu this is kinda weird..aku banyak nickname haha.Aku suka bumi..alam ini sebenarnya indah jika kau menetup mata,menghidu bau tanah yg basah diseram gerimis hujan yg tidah lebat...merasakan angin yg lalu membuka mata dan dpt melihat daun didahan pokok menari ikut rentak lagu yg kau inginkan..
Masalah yg membebani jiwa akan hilang sekejap.
Aku merindukan sang bintang yg berkelipan utk menghiasi langit pada malam sepi.
Aku menunggu saat aku bisa bahagia.
Aku ingin terbang melepas dari segala hal yg aku tk ingin lakukan.
Aku sepi.
Sepi ini mencengkam jiwa.
Aku memang terlihat tertawa dan seperti lengkap hidupku tapi aku menangis didalam hati.
Bukannya tidak bersyukur dengan apa yg aku ada.
Maafkanku tuhan kerna tidak menjadi insan yg baik.
Manusia mmg tk pernah puas dan bersyukur dengan apa yg dia ada apalagi bersyukur denganmu.
Aku memang hamba yg lemah....
Cerita cinta sepeti korea,indonesia dan berbagai lagi menghiasi hidupku yg sepi.
Aku bisa tersenyum dengan hanya melihat cerita sebegini kerana aku tahu aku tak akan bisa dapa kehidupan cinta yg pada akhirnya bahagia......

Lucky-Ashily

Nan himi deulttaemyeon Lucky in my life!
Geudaega kkumcheoreom dagaoneyo

Seulpeo jilttaemyeon nan Lucky in my dream!
Geudae ttaseuhage nareul kkok gamssajuneyo

Eonjena i-reoke useoyo na~ sesangi himdeulge haedo nan jeoldae
Nunmureun bo-igo sipjin anchyo~ nae mameul moreuneun geudaerado-
Meolliseo-rado geudaeui geu misoreul ganjikhalsuisseo dahaengijyo

Ulgo sipeulttaen Lucky in my love!
Sangsangsok geudaega meotjyeoboyeoyo

Uljeokhaejimyeon nan Lucky in my world!
Geudae kkumgyeolcheoreom nareul kkok anajujyo

Geuraeseo i-reoke useoyo nar~ sesangi himdeulge haedo nan jeoldae
Nunmureun bo-igo sipjin anchyo~ nae mameul moreuneun geudaerado-
Meolliseo-rado geudaeui geu misoreul ganjikhalsuisseo dahaengijyo

Nan neomu areumdawo- nan neomu haengbokhangeol-
Oeroun sesange nan~ tto naesowoneul damayo

Geuraeseo i-reoke useoyo nar~ sesangi himdeulge haedo nan jeoldae
Nunmureun bo-igo sipjin anchyo~ nae mameul moreuneun geudaerado-
Meolliseo-rado geudaeui geu misoreul ganjikhalsuisseo dahaengijyo

Geudae hangeoreumman dagawayo
Credit:soompiforums

lost

My life change alot drastically..I've lost him .. I've lost a fwen .. I've lost a sister .. I've lost my old ibu.....
Lost everything.my grades drop so drastically too.life jus dun go the way i wanted.cun even get sumone to talk to.they hear but were not listening.my bf in her own world trying to survive..my mom with her problems..dad with his sickess...brother struggling to work wif my strict uncle..
When will all this stop..im missing so many ppl that i can't even find myself...wanted to cry but it dried up years ago..im crying but no one hears im souting for help but no one cares bcause they have to deal wif their own troubles..i got to wake up...i need someone to guide me along ..someone who could love me and bring me away ..make my day with joys and make me smile all the time...no one is coming ...i look out the window staring at the dark sky...its so plain but the stars brighten it up and were always there for the sky....
I love u too much ibu...i care for u too much que...
im so scared i'd lose u guys..........
the times we were together were always placed deep inside
MY HEART

why?

Why must u hurt us?
Don't u love ibu anymore?At least pity her if u don't.
She has gone through alot.Please i beg u to stop u nonsense!
For god sake please just ones think about ibu.
Don't be a selfish bitch!
Please just don't act rebellious.U are a fool of urself.
If u want to know,u caused me to fail badly..u caused me to always feel bad about myself!
U caused me to feel lonely!
I lost my frens...now u wan me to lose my ibu?
FCUK URSELF BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE U TO THE COAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im tired...so exhausted...

I thought i was strong enough to go through all the toughness in my life.
My sweet 16 honestly,sux alot.
I didnt wanna tell anyone especially ibu bcause she tried her best to smile on dat day.
My aunt helps me alot.I really appreaciate ppl who tried to make me happy.
Frankly,it really realy tored me apart.I tried nt to cry...and bcause of dat i fell sick.
Ibu i really wanted to tell u this but i dun wanna hurt u.
Whenever i fell sick and didnt wanna take the medicine is nt bcause of wanting u to take me to see the docter.I noe our financial problem.It jus that maybe when i fell sick ppl could care bout me.
It really hurts me seeing u cry.
If only u knew one hobby of mine.
I really love looking at your face when u were sleeping.
I would always cry staring at it cause i knew and i feel what u've been going through.
Sorry for being soo selfish.
Sorry for being childish.
Maybe i jus dun wanna noe abt wats happening arnd me dats why i entertain myself wif those korean,indonesian,hindustan and sometimes english love dramas and then went to sleep.
I hate my life ibu seriosly.
Im so scared of failing.
Im scared of losing u smile and laughter.
Im scared of almost everything.
I love u so much .
There's no other person who could love me like u do.
I really am tired of losing ... everything...


I dun wanna shed anymore tears.
NuraZ.

Bisikan Rindu

Semakin jauh
Semakin panjang
Perpisahan kita ini
Maafkan aku kerna memunkiri janjiku utk melupakanmu
Bukan maksudku
Ku sudah mencuba tapi tk terdaya
Aku sungguh masih syg padamu
...
Hey Blog,
Its quite a time since i put stuff on u.
haha.
I jus expressed my feeling bout missing him so much
Hanya bayangnya ada
Kasihnya tiada
...

Life is miserable
Im tired.
Skul is tough
ART..
MATHS..
ouh..
problems are stressing me more
frens,family,health...
and him...
...

i guess i need alot of rest..
but not too much i guess..
...

love ibu more and more day by day..

tc
NuraZ

Untuk kamu..

Sayang..
Sesungguhnya bukan mudah,
Menjalani hidup ini,
Tanpa kau disisi.

Jauh di sudut hati,
Aku masih bermimpi,
Mimpi yang indah,
Esok kau kembali.

Jauh di sudut hati,
Ada waktu-waktunya,
Aku berdoa,
Kau pulang semula.

Sayang..
Biarku mengingatimu,
Biarku gantung harapan,
Hingga sampai waktu,
Nafas terakhirku.

I heard u failed ur "o" level.
I blamed myself for it.
At least u went to ITE.
Cun believe u took nursing course.(sama mcm ur twin actor Haizad Imran)
I hope ur happy.
Ira gave me this letter.
It says "apa yg kau akan uat kalau Mr H berkata demikian...,"
"Izinkan aku pergi dan biarlah takdir yg menentukan kedudukanmu dihatiku..
She also wrote maybe i would reply this "memang aku tk inginkan semua ini terjadi tapi tuhan yg tlah menentukan..walaupun gitu kau tetap ku sayangi..hatiku sakit tanpamu disisi..apatalagi di depan mataku tiada lagi senyumanmu yg menghibur dukaku..aku menjadi insan yg tanpa arah tanpa itu..

Chika.