Im tired...so exhausted...

I thought i was strong enough to go through all the toughness in my life.
My sweet 16 honestly,sux alot.
I didnt wanna tell anyone especially ibu bcause she tried her best to smile on dat day.
My aunt helps me alot.I really appreaciate ppl who tried to make me happy.
Frankly,it really realy tored me apart.I tried nt to cry...and bcause of dat i fell sick.
Ibu i really wanted to tell u this but i dun wanna hurt u.
Whenever i fell sick and didnt wanna take the medicine is nt bcause of wanting u to take me to see the docter.I noe our financial problem.It jus that maybe when i fell sick ppl could care bout me.
It really hurts me seeing u cry.
If only u knew one hobby of mine.
I really love looking at your face when u were sleeping.
I would always cry staring at it cause i knew and i feel what u've been going through.
Sorry for being soo selfish.
Sorry for being childish.
Maybe i jus dun wanna noe abt wats happening arnd me dats why i entertain myself wif those korean,indonesian,hindustan and sometimes english love dramas and then went to sleep.
I hate my life ibu seriosly.
Im so scared of failing.
Im scared of losing u smile and laughter.
Im scared of almost everything.
I love u so much .
There's no other person who could love me like u do.
I really am tired of losing ... everything...


I dun wanna shed anymore tears.
NuraZ.