Wondering..

Its already 1:52 am and i cun sleep yet.
My family is still watching the new vcd dat bro bought frm Johor.
Its actually pirated but no uncensored scene as its a malay movie.
I'm jus wondering wat if i were born with a parents who dun really mind if I go out with friends and come home this hour.
Huh..Its only a fake dream.
(Aku dah bersyukur atas apa Yg Allah S.W.T beri padaku.)
FYI i was jus wondering only.

I'm having my mens and pimples are growing happily to see the world.
But why grow on my face cun they grow like on plants or something.
Like I said I was only wondering.

My blog is not as cool as others.
Others have cbox.
I tried uploading it into my blog but its not as easy as I thought.
Actually i created this blog not for fame but jus for myself and special people around me could read.
This is like a shout out diary.
Sometimes if im feeling angry or sad or even happy,I cun realy tell them or I dun have the oppurtinity to tell them so I gave them my blog add and they read and could understand me a lil well.

But blogs sometimes can kill people or creates fight among people.
That is why I low profiled this blog.
I dun talk bad behind people outside so even in my blog i wun write shit abt ppl.

I love my family and friends and sometimes my enemy.
Weird rite.
There is a saying that says "ur enemy is actually ur bestfriend while ur bestfren could be ur greatest enemy."

Missed my friends.
Missed school.
Missed the old times.
School would not be the same next yr.
Well,his not going to be around anymore.
I really hope he passed his "O" levels with "floating" colours.
Haha.

Okae for now im gonna update my tagged.
Friendster is kinda of boring nw.
Myspace is still okae.
Yeah nt forgetting my facebook.
I did'nt upload it at all.
Haiz..
Tiring..
Guess my eyes are going to shut soon.

TC
Nura.

Sahabat..

Lega rasa hati ini setelah mendengar berita dari sahabatku.
Alhamdulillah kini ibunya sudah selamat melahirkan bayi perempuan.
Terasa ingin ku belai bayi itu dengan penuh kasih sayang.
Aku memang mencintai kanak2.
Padaku kanak2 membuatku ceria pabilaku berduka.
Tawa riang mereka sungguh comel.
Mereka insan yang tk berdosa.
Mereka selalu kelihatan gembira sentiasa.
Selalu ku ingat ibu pernah berkata"hari raya budak2 ni"setiap kali ibu melihat kanak2 kecil bergembira sambil lari2.
Haha.Lucu bukan.
Aku rindu akan kedua2 sahabatku.
tidak lupa juga Ann dan Naini.
Syiqin juga selalu menghiburku walau hanya di telefon.
Adakah kemarahan opah terhadapku udah reda?
Aku harap dia sihat dan tidak lagi membenciku.
Sesungguhnya aku menyayanginya sepeti nenekku sendiri.
Aku sayang pada cucunya,dialah sahabatku yg tidak pernah bosan dengan diri ini.
Dia selalu ada pabila ku memerlukannya.
Aku rindu untuk bertemu Ira.
Dia selalu membuatku tidak putus asa akan mencapai impianku.
Terima kasih sahabat2ku.

Akan ku kenang jasa2 kalian.
Yang benar jujur,
Nura.

Mengapa Sukar tuk Melupakanmu..

Ku udah cuba tuk melupakanmu seperti apa yg kau mau.
Tapi ternyata aku memang tk bisa melupakanmu.
Kenangan di sekolah dan saat2 kau ada membuat ku semakin merinduimu.
Semakin aku ingin melupakanmu semakin kuat rasa ini..
Aku pun tak mengerti kenapa ini terjadi padaku.
Aku tk pernah meminta untuk mempunyai perasaan ini terhadapmu.
Tapi aku hanya insan biasa yang sedang membesar.
Aku tahu aku tk secantik dia tapi apakah cinta harus ada pada paras rupa.
Aku rindu akan senyuman kamu yang dulu pernah ada pada dia.
Aku rindu akan merenung ke matamu yang sayu itu.
Aku rindu menunggumu setiap kali aku pulang sekolah.
Aku rindu melihat kamu melintas ke sekolah.
Aku rindu melihat kamu jalan melepasi bilik darjahku.
Aku rindu pandanganmu.
Aku rindu diganggu oleh temanku setiap kali kamu lalu depanku.
Aku rindu akan semuanya yang membabitkan dirimu.
Aku tk pernah melupakanmu.
Aku tk pernah lupa sejarah kita di sekolah.
Aku tk pernah lupa juga sejarah kita di luar sekolah.
Aku tkkan pernah lupa yg aku pernah mencintai dirimu.

Sesungguhnya aku adalah insan yg lemah.
Nura.

INTERZAD

Before I start I wanna explain the meaning of Interzad.Im not sure i got the spelling right but i pronounced it quite correctly.Its an hindustan word.It means waiting.U know waiting as in waiting for someone or somebody.Don't you guys ever felt tired and already felt like giving up just like that.Sometimes I jus don't understand.I just wish i did'nt.I jus wish i could get back.Hey,dat sounds like Demi Lovato's song.She rox!
I miss my indonesian dramas.
But now Im in love with watching korean drama since I watched 'my girl'.Taiwan drama is also cute,'Corner with love'.
Ok I better get going now .
Take Care
NuraZ

tired..

I jus came back from a leadership camp @ school yesterday.So tired.
I gotta know my class next year.I missed Ira alot.Seems lyk she' avoiding me.I guess people whom i care can't stick to long with me.Im i such a pess.
I can't believe that i spoke to Mohaka's sister througout the camp.
She turns out to be a friendly girl not lyk wat i heard about her.
She is cute and sweet.
But when i talk to her i jus cun look her in her eyes cause it reminds me of him.
Im sorry Mohaka i guess i can't get over him.
It hurts me so deep.At least i have told ur sister the truth.
And i gotta to noe whom u love.
Its okay.
Life sometimes is really unfair.
But well love cun be forced.
You know the most painful heartbreaking love is that the one u love dun love u.
I better get going now.
NuraZ

nervous

Getting nervous for the coming came that i will be attending.
Kinda upset cause im not in the same group as Que.
Misses Ira so much.Wat is she doing.Is her mom doing find.
I care about all my friends and families.I love them alot.I cant bear losing them.
Now it seems like im back in the real world when school closes.Cant wait to go to school nxt yr.
Im nt sure wt class am i going to be nxt yr but im sure im going up.I mean i got to go to the nxt level.Alhamdulillah!Thanks to Allah..and of course my ibu...
Getting further and further frm him.
Its okay t least he already confessed wat e felt towards me.
He told me that we're different in many ways nd its not possible for him to lyk me so he told me to forget him.
Frankly,its so not easy to jus forget him.
But,i know dat love can't be forced.
If his happy ,it makes me happy too.
BTW,i still have ibu and my love ones around me i dun need a guy to make me happy.
So long for now.
Take Care,
Nura

hurt

im hurt
im hurt
im hurt
im hurt
im hurt
im hurt
thanks for telling me the truth
i'll remember this date(190908)forever
u are honest and a gentleman
i hope u get what u want
be happy always
and i'll promise u dat i will try to forget u eventhough its fooking tough
im sorry cause i came into ur life.
sorry but want thing i want to from u is do'n misjudged me..
ther is somethings that u heard from them that is not true bout me
im not that kind of girl
thanks for caring anyway

Cintai Aku

Saat pertama kali..
Ku merenung wajahmu..
Hatiku terpaur melihat senyumanmu yang mengingatkan aku pada seseorang..
Pada mulanya aku suka kamu karna dapat mengubat rindu padanya..
Tapi ternyata akmu berbeza darinya..
Kamu punyai mata sayu..

Chorus

Mulanya hanya raa suka..
Lalu timbulah rasa cinta..
Yang menghantui jiwaku..

Maafkan aku andai kau tersiksa
Dengan kehadiranku ini..

Bukan ku pinta jadi begini
Mungkin memang sudah takdir kita bertemu..
Dan kini kita kan berjauhan

Hatiku sangat merindui dirimu..
Sejak ku mula sayang padamu..

Cintai aku
Belai aku dengan kasih sayangmu
Jangan pernah sakiti aku
Dan jangan pernah
Ninggalin aku..
Karna aku sayan kamu....


This song was created by me..
NuraZ

Back about me...

Back talking about me.
Sorry about the "JiwangS'' posts.
I was just trying to express out my love feelings towards the people i love.
By the way i got a new hobby and i think im good @ it.
Writing philosophys.
Love my mom so much.
She is so wonderful.
My friendship is going quite well but a little misunderstanding going on.
Do you believe in horoscop?
I don't really believe in it but i guess its quite fun to try it out.
I only beliefs in god.
The one and only.
Allah S.w.t..
Hmm..Hope he hears my pain,my happiness..
I know his there watching me.
Watching us all.
haha


Signing Out
NuraZ

Falsafah Cinta

Kenapa terlalu sukar untuk melafazkan apatah lagi mahu meluahkan..
Apakah cinta itu sebernarnya hanya mainan perasaan?
Tetapi kenapa semakin disimpan,semakin terdera rasanya?
Ahh..
Segalanya benar-benar menyakitkan.
Dipendam,terasa sakit,mahu diluah terasa perit.
Untuk daerah cintaku yang manis ini untukmu..
Rupanya airmataku belum kering mengalir.
Airmata..
Jangan tumpah lagi kerana aku tidak berdaya lagi menagih cinta..


Falsafah-falsafah cinta ini ku ambil dari novel-novel cinta..
Lalu ku gabungkan semuanya khas buatmu..
inilah perasaan yang kurasai detik ini..
Inilah..
Luahan Hatiku...


Selalu disini..
Menanti..
SiNuZa

Kepadamu..

Pernahkah engkau terfikir tentang perasaanku..
Kau abaikan cintaku..
Sampainya Hatimu..
Cintaku tidak bisa dilakukan sebegitu rupa karena aku punyai perasaan sepeti dirimu juga..
Jangan kau salah menilai diriku..
Kenapa aku tidak dicintai dirimu..
Adakah aku dicipta untuk disakiti..
Apakah salah dan dosaku..
Maafkan aku jika engkau rimas dengan kehadiranku..
Aku cuma mahu menatap dirimu disaat-saat akhir kamu berada dekat denganku..
Itu saja permintaan terakhirku..
Cintai aku dengan sepenuh hatimu..
Karena aku tidak mahu menjadi seperti perigi mencari timba..
Aku akui aku wanita yang lemah..
Tapi kau juga manusia yang mempunyai kelemahan tersendiri..
Aku tahu engkau takut untuk dilukai untuk yang kedua kalinya..
Tapi berilah aku peluang untuk membuktikan padamu bagaimana kuatnya cintaku..
Berilah aku peluang untuk merasa belaian cinta dari seorang jejaka yang aku puja..
Berilah aku peluang untuk aku buktikan bahawa aku bukan sepeti mereka apalagi seperti dia
Aku memang tidak sempurna..
Tapi mana ada manusia hidup dalam dunia ini yang sempurna..
Aku juga tidak mendapat kebebasan hidup..
Aku memang tahu aku tidak layak berdamping denganmu..
Tapi kita semua manusia biasa..
Semua manusia mempunyai hak untuk mencintai sesiapa pun..
Aku cuma mahu berteman denganmu..
Mahu mengenali dirimu ..
Mahu mencintai kekuranganmu..
Menjadi seorang teman tapi mesra..
Dimana engkau ada pabila ku berduka atau bergembira..
Ku mahu engkau mencintai kekuranganku..
Mencintai keperibadianku..
Mencintai cara hidupku..
Dan..
Mencintai diriku dengan sepenuh jiwamu..
Kau bintang dihatiku..
Jadilah seperti yang ku mahu..
Cintai aku semalam,kini,besok dan selamanya..
Sehingga akhir hayatku..
Ku kan tetap menanti..
Menanti Cintamu..


Cintaku Hanya Untukmu..
SiNuZa

aku,dia dan kamu

Aku
Emanglah tk secantik dia.
Dia
Emang cantik.
Kamu
Mempunyai kelebihan yg diberi oleh tuhan.
Aku
Hidup dlm khayalan dan mimpi yg tk mungkin akan menjadi realiti.
Dia
Selalu mendapat apa yg diingini.
Kamu
Tk peduli akan apa yg berlaku disekelilingmu.
Aku
Bagai menantikan sebuah angan2.
Dia
Tahu akan apa yg akan dimilikinya.
Kamu
Masih lagi terdiam dgn senyuman itu.



aku ingin engkau tahu..
aku disini..
seorang manusia yg mempunyai perasaan..
seperti mereka dan juga seperti insan yg bernama manusia..
xoxo,
Nura

Things are going well..

After sorting things out with Ira i felt so much better.Now i friendship is not that shaky anymore.Thank you ALLAH s.w.t.My bro showed me a video about GoD's ability to help us.It was unbelievable but true..it does thought me a lesson.A lesson to never give-up cause god can hear us and love us.It is okay if nobody is with you cause deep inside you must remember god is always inside ...here..in your heart.
Again THANK YOU ALLAH.
Bye for now,
NuraZ

Thanks

Hey today is quiet a crazy day for me..hehe..
Cause there are bad and @ the same time good things happened.Hehe
My bro brought me a new headphone and...MP3
i don't really care how much it cost but the colour are amazing!
My two most fav colour.PINK & GREEN
so damn exited to use it.
But then Ira hurt me..she is a bestfren of mine..i care alot bout her but she seems to be getting further and further away from me..im scared if one day we cun hang out and crack jokes together again..
I know she is having problems..but im here ,her bestfren is here why does she keeps it away from me and tell her problems to her classmates..
She knows that i dun lyk to hear things frm others rite then why dun she herself tell me..
Why must there be secrets and lies in his friendship..
This is really pissing me off..
Im just scared if one day..she would leave me...............................cause its not the same without her...its just not the same...
I love her so much....
I care about her...
Ya Allah ampunilah dosa hambamu ini...
Bukakanlah pintu hati kwn2ku dan org2 yg kusygi utk bertaubat..
Hambamu mengaku lemah...ku bersujud padamu ya allah...
amin...
NuraZ

cinta?

Cinta?
Emang benar ada?
Yeke?
Kenapa mesti aku yang merasakannya?Maksud aku kenapa aku yang mesti mencintai dia bukan dia yang cintakan aku?
Maaf kalau kelihatannya aku ikut2 gaya kamu..
Aku cuma mau ingat kamu..
Aku suka cara kamu..walaupun selekeh dia mak oi!hahax pasal ibu kata Nura pun selekeh..hahax..
Tapi kamu emang punya cara tersendiri yang menakjubkan..
Senyumanmu yang menawan memikat kalbu..ia btol2 ingatkan aku pada seseorg..
Andai kau rasa apa yang aku rasa..
Pasti kau juga teruja dengan kuasa cinta..
Angin yang berlalu bersama hari yang semakin menjauh membuat jantungku berdegup kencang..
Resah hati ini...
Takut ditinggalkan dengan hanya kenangan manis dan pahit..tentang dikau..
Pada saat kau disini..
Sedang mendamparkan senyuman manismu dan pandangan ayumu..kearahku..
Detik itu dunia ini seakan milik aku dan dikau..seorg..hmm..
Angin ..
Menemaniku menjalani hari yang sepi tanpa dirimu..
Angin ..
Yang berlalu seperti seorang sahabat yang mengerti perasaanku dan mendengar bisikkan cintaku..
Yang hanya dirasakan utk dirimu seorg..
Namun sayangnya...
Kamu menilai aku dari apa yang kamu lihat pada paras wajahku bukan apa yang kamu ketahui tentang diriku...
Aku bukan mengimis...
Aku bukan meminta simpati..
Aku hanya ingin dimengerti ,dihormati...dan yang paling penting...
Aku ingin dicintai...

give me space...

Time passes by so fast.
I'm really pissed off by almost everyone.
Why must fate be like these?
Why must i care about people around me when they don't even give a damn to me?
Why must i respect them when they don't even respect me?
Why must it be me whom must be patient to people?
Why me?
huh.....
so damn tired....
i can't breath like these...
please if you don't love me its ok but please just give me some respect...
dat's all i need...
only that....
signing off,
NuraZ

Lyrics -kasih sayang frm 6ixth sense

Kasih Sayang

Kasih sayang ..
Terlalu indah untuk dikenang ..
Selamanya ..takkan pernah ku buang ..
Kasih sayang ..aah..ng..
Tiada pernah kenal usi..a...tua muda..aah..akan menikmatinya..
Namun jangan engkau lu..paa..aa..akan akibat masa nanti..
Engkau akan menderita..karna terbayang rasa cinta...
Kasih sayang..
Terlalu pahit dan menyakitkan...dan membuat..
Remaja patah hati...


this song is my tribute to all my frens who is in love ...
love u guys..
NuraZ

am i loved?

Im getting kinda pissed of being @home its kinda tiring to entertain the queen control of ..grand's and my father..its not dat i hate them..but im just tired being asked to do things dat i dun wanna do ...oh god when will this sufferings will go far away frm my already disaster life!
Im always excited to go to skool as i can meet my friend and my Mr MoHaKa...but after skool i kinda of hate walking back home leaving my frens n Mr MoHaka behind...
when im @ home i felt dat there is no life spared for me at least my heroin whch is 'ibu' who were always there for me but sometimes when i have problems i would thing twice before telling her cause i dun wan her to carry together my pain as i noe she have loads of problems and pains herself ...i love her so much i cun bear losing her..
Let's now talk bout our Mr MoHaKa...hmm..juz by saying his name my heart is beating so fast as if he was beside me..hahax
His doing his 'o' levels rite now and im so worried if the day he left our skool will be the last time i will ever see him...
Please say no !!!
One day of not seeing his face,i would get bad mood and my frens will be the culprit for me to burst out my anger which so not good!
Im sorry for that actually...
ok i guess thats for now...
Take carez
SiNuZa

Back 2 my hometown

Its been quite a long time since i last posted sometink here.
I kinda miss school alot though,despite having some kinda fun during my trip 2 Kuantan which is in Pahang,Malaysia.
I miss him alot...i just cun resist him.I love him alot..im not really sure its love though.It culd be juz lyk a crush thing well cause im still so young.I dunnoe wat has been bothering me all this while.My grades are a total bullshit man.Ok to be frank im jeolous of my frens grades ... well nothing can change my laziness...maybe one day..
huh..life is so tough ....
Im scared if he dun love me...what if he is tired of seeing my face everywhere he goes?What if he hates me?
Does he actually noe dat i love him alot...
Despite loving him ,i still cun forget Danny...i dunno why i cun get over him...his so different from the others though...but dun worry i love a new person dat is almost lyk u Danny ... i want u 2 be happy with wat u have now cause dat will make me happy too..
My mom saw u and told me dat u are a good looking person but she asked me to go on with my life and stop thinking bout u who dun even noe me ...ok i guess people will think dat im lyk a stalker but im totally not into dat ok ...im straight and totally normal.
I love my family , my friends ,teachers ,people around me,him ....and maybe...myself.....

I think i have update enough here for now...better get back to my real world i guess...

P.S:I will always love u....

kuantan trip

Hey,

I jus came back from the 4 days 3 nights trip to Kuantan which is in Pahang,Malaysia.It was a great adventure.I missed him alot and not forgetting my lovely mom.We went to Megamall the second day and i was so shocked when i saw Haiqal's clon @ starbucks.The looks were totally same and the appearance was alike too.Its not that i missed him alot dat i look @ someone and juz say dat they look alike but Que and Atiqah have the same thought with me too.Here are some picture we took @ Kuantan .

This is a pic i took @ one of the beach there.I kinda tink dis is a great pic of myself as the background is cool..haha.

People came here to look @ the wonderful rocks @ the bay.There is a huge cliff behind this bay.

got to go ,

NuraZ

im over it..

yaw!

its been so long since i ever post any new news about wats happening in my life.Do u guys still remember Danny ..the guy that i met @ traffic light..hehe..i think im over him..i still remember on the 7 th march 08 i saw him after so long i've been waiting to see him again,he was wearing a red tee his kinda different then,he looks more matured with a very beautiful kinda hot looking girl beside him.hehe...
huh..im actually happy for him..its not his fault u noe i was the one whom is sop stupid not to tell him wat i feel about him..hmm...ok ,i'll regret for even have a feeling towards him but now in school there is this guy whom his smile ,height and walks like him i mean totally like him ..im trying to move on..my friends disturbs me with him ....hehe but the good thing is that his reactions towards me is positive he always smiles @me while passing by my class...he is cute and sweet..hmm.. i guess im starting to get in love with him only that the problem is he is going to be out of school after his o level and like danny he is going to leave me alone again..i hope before he goes,he would say goodbye or something sweet so at least there is a memory between us..i hope so..i guess i need to end it here for today ..to u guys out there stay cool and chill out wat ya yelling for..hehe

rock on..,
nuraz